na maging masaya ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko…

nang di sinadya ay nagkrus ang magkaiba nating landas…

at nagdugtong ang buhay ko at buhay mo…

at sumilay ang ngiti sa aking mga labi…

nang sumilip ang araw sa madilim kong paligid…

at mula sa malayo ay natatanaw kita…

papalapit sa akin ang maamo mong mukha…

at bumilis nang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko…

at maraming naglaro sa malikot kong isip…

may dahilan daw ang bawat bagay sa buhay natin…

at bawat taong dumadating sa buhay natin ay may gagampanan…

bakit nga kaya naitanong ko sa sarili ko…

dapat nga ba akong matuwa?

tama ba…

na maging bahagi ka ng bawat araw ko…

ang malungkot ‘pag ‘di ka nakita kahit isang araw man lang…

at mapuno nang saya pag nakita ka na ulit…

mababaw ang halakhak sa bawat mong biro…

manatili ang ngiti ‘pag naapuhap ka ng alaala…

ang panoorin ang bawat mong galaw…

at pasukin ang malawak mong mundo…

mahiga sa malambot mong unan…

humilig sa iyong balikat…

mabusog sa yakap mong mahigpit…

dapat ko ba itong maramdaman?

tama ba…

managhili kung may kasama kang iba

na mabighani ka ng kanyang ganda…

mainggit ‘pag tinapunan mo sya ng malagkit mong tingin…

masaktan ‘pag napangiti ka nya…

at maangkin nya ang matamis mong labi…

o kulungin sya ng iyong mga bisig…

at maabot nya ang langit sa iyong piling…

dapat ba akong makialam?

tama ba…

na gustuhin kon

They asked me how I knew
My true love was true?
I of course replied
“Something here inside
Cannot be denied”

They said someday you’ll find
All who love are blind
When your heart’s on fire
You must realize
Smoke gets in your eyes

So I chaffed them and I gaily laughed
To think they could doubt my love
Yet today, my love has flown away
I am without my love

Now laughing friends deride
Tears I can not hide
So I just smile and say
“When a lovely flame dies
Smoke gets in your eyes”
Smoke gets in your eyes

So I chaffed them and I gaily laughed
To think they could doubt my love
Yet today, my love has flown away
I am without my love
Without my love

Sometimes there’s a time when you must say goodbye
Though it hurts you must learn to try
I know I’ve got to let you go
But I know anywhere you go
You’ll never be far
‘Coz like the light of a bright star
You’ll keep shining in my life
You’re gonna be right

Here in my heart
That’s where you’ll be
You’ll be with me
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
Long as you’re here in my heart

Won’t be any tears falling from those eyes
‘Cos when true love never dies
It says alive forever
Time can’t take away what we have
I will remember our time together
You may think our time is through
But I’ll still have you

Here in my heart…
I know you’ll be back again
And ’till then
My love is waiting

Here in my heart…

      i am bounded by my own foolishness. i knew i must have done something to avoid me falling but i refrained from mere cautiousness and let things be. however, i had no regrets. it was my choice and no one forced or influenced me. it was entirely my own decision. now the time has come to reap what i have sown. i’m afraid i was not prepared to face it.

     it’s not that i don’t think first before making a decision. it’s just that i don’t think twice to see if it was the right one. learning is a constant process and failure is an evident outcome. if it pays to fail, then i would love to learn more.

     i must admit i failed but more than once and i have the reason to believe that everyone else does. however, life is too short to make it a trial and error ground to  practise for. one failure affects much of our lives and leads to dozens of after effect. mistakes may lead to a chain of endless errs.

     this was one lesson i learned, the hard way. it’s true that when you listen to your heart, your mind then will definitely take the backseat. it depends on what really matters to you…how you feel or how others would feel about how you feel. otherwise, if you decide to let the brain take charge instead, then your heart would have to endure the pain it brings.

     it was a tricky choice but i made my pick. i listened to my heart. it was not the best choice i know. but it made my heart smile. the joy it brought me was worth the pain it has along with it. on the other hand, i realized i was too selfish just thinking of my feelings alone and not considering  those around me. i should not live for just myself and there are people whose opinions matters to me and  my life. and i had to let them go to give way to my own will.

     and believe me, there is a big difference in making such a decision. i didn’t knew what i’d loss or win until i’ve made my choice. it was like taking a chance on a bet and hoping the result was a win. if it was not, i may need to accept the pain of losing.

i have taken a few steps

and i have not come too far

i tested with both feet

if waters were deep

leaving me to drown

in my own foolish slip

but i guess my best wasn’t good enough

co’z here we are back where we were before

seemed nothing ever changes

we’re back to being strangers

wondrin’ if we ought to stay

or head on out the door

just once

can we figure out what we’ve been doing wrong?

why the good times never last for long

what are we doing wrong?

just once

can we find a way to fin’lly make it right?

make the magic last for more than just one night

if we could just get to it

i know we can break through it..

i gave my all

but i guess my all may have been too much

the lord knows we’re not getting anywhere

it seemed we’re always blowing

whatever we got going

it seemed that time is all we got

we haven’t got a friend

make the magic last for more than just one night

if we could just get to it

i know we can break through it

just once

i want to understand

why it always comes back to goodbye

why can’t we give ourselves a hand

and admit to one anothere

we’re no good without each other

have the best to make it better

find a way to stay together 

just once

can we find a way to fin’lly make it right?

make the magic last for more than just one night

if we could just get to it

i know we can break through it

just once

oh, we can get to it

just once

through a shadow of fears

visions are blinded

with a handful of tears

clouds of cigar smoke

heavy on my eyes

sounds of low whispers

echoing through the night

i am but a slave

of a damned emotion

of falling too deeply

in love with you

you are a promise

i cannot own

until i hear your lips

silently moan

that i am the love

that you were longing for

an end to a journey

of seeking in vain

running to and fro

giggling innocence fills the air

resemblance of not long ago

when i used to fit in tiny slippers

completely unaware of harshness

a wild world there is in the out

boxed in own young mind

indulging in toddler toys

yet ears turned upon truth

little hearts pained in ignorance

parting seemed unconsented

entire being much affected

never included in the bargain

of which is which and what’s next

face an ounce of whatever

would have no choice at all

would not even have a say

to accept as the only opt

hatred much contained

taken much for granted

emotion less considered

pretty little princesses

poor, poor young ones

happiness defied

gazing into his image

looking through his weary eyes

sensing amid sadness

softly speak as he embrace

on his lap his small angels

in his own place of heaven

a home that was broken

along with his heart

young dreams he wish to fulfill

for his lovely little ladies

fate was unkind

to break their young hearts

he tried to restore

a faith in them

rebuild a missing hope

failures to succeed

to live in a happy home

taking a blind step

to pull his way up

take them along

a better promised land

fear to face ahead

strength from their young hands

deny his own self

to protect them from harm